evenflow...

Yanno, the more i use this, the more i like it, i love the fact that i can write my own shit down, and no one sees it, at least anyone i know...

In a completely shallow, self fulfilling way, i realllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy wish i was lusted after. Not even that anything would happen, but i sit and watch people watch for other hot people, and get all giddy everytime they see them, and its contagious. One person likes guy X, and soon everyone is freaking out over guy X. I wouldn't trade who i am for anything, but i wish i was guy X on occasion.

I still have an inner laugh when they all found out that the guy they think is the best thing on earth is dumber that a box of rocks, self-centered, shallow, sexist, racist, and hideous on the inside.

Yeah, i'm reliable, and responsible. WHoopee. I'm also your best friend, and sometimes i feel like nothing more, or never will be.
Damn it and damn me, for falling into the same rut of old, one i don't know how to get out of, and one i'm scared to try and escape. If i knew why, i would probably be long gone...

Or maybe i'de hold on forever.

Where is my sacrifice?

Not drunk anymore, but i removed this from lostinmypants in the interest of not being a complete moron. Still wanna remember it though, so here she lays...

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Fuck me

I wanna post this, I’m pretty crunked, but I’m afraid if I don’t now, I feel I won’t ever, but if not now, then never.

Pissed at this point in time…

Wish I’de never entered the room, and wish I’de never left…

Glad she knew

Fuck me for being me

Fuck me for caring

Fuck me for being more than something shallow.

Fuck me for letting her know me.

I don’t ever wanna be drunk again and I never wanna be sober @ this point in time

My life is all I want it to be, and all I never want to experience again…

Fuck me…