evenflow...

Sorry girl, but i laugh at how what you want to know most outta me falls to the wayside over a drunken conversation over another. Damn you for not following for once.(sighs but understands) Not sad in my mind, just humorous.

And i go to post on another blog.

I dunno maybe i'm the only one who reads so damn deep into lyrics. Maybe its just a way for me to express the emotions i can't put into words. Or maybe its just a cop-out to lay things down, but its funny how my mood changes how i look at them I've had this one song bouncing around in my head since about Spring break, and it is one of those songs that i sing until my throat hurts when i'm alone (there's many, i promise, someday i may follow caroline's ideas and make a big list...but who knows) But this song, i heard it many many times, and the one line always caught me.

Holds a truth I can't erase
All alone on your face

And over the past few days, the truth has changed. completely altered how I saw it. A new truth. And its true, at least in my mind. And i can see it on your face. And i smile and am happy for you.

"Then everything’s alright...so alright
There we were
One less star tonight"

or i'll actually just let be the next morning.

"may angels lead 'me' in"

Because i dunno what the hell is going on, and what i'm lost about is what i want to understand the most. And the worst part is i think i know deep down. And nothing changes me.

*shakes head*

24 hours of pain and hurting but I'm not sorry/angry
Athenaeum "Damage"


"And I hate to be the one telling you that everything's ok...
...
And someday soon when the memory has faded
We'll defend all the lives we once hated
And I'll be there, baby, glad that you made it alive"
Athenaeum "Lifeline"

"..."
Athenaeum "Unnoticed"

And so many things i want to ask and never will.
Damn me being drunk and posting on a blog that only one person will read and i'll regret when i'm sober.