Thursday, February 07, 2002
Yeah, lost a post. Gone. I saved it. Rebooted. No more. And i doubt it'll be up again. I won't write it. Damn my computer.
Song i wanna hear b/c i'm pissed at the computer for losing my post. Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit
Song of the Day: Medicine by Guster.
Song i wanna hear b/c i'm pissed at the computer for losing my post. Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit
Song of the Day: Medicine by Guster.
Monday, February 04, 2002
*laughs aloud* sometimes i feel like such a tool. I wish i would just get slapped sometimes, or be able to see myself from someone else's Point of View, and i figure if i did, i would laugh hard as all hell. Some things that run through my head make me feel like such an ass, but i wonder how others would view those thoughts if they had a clue. And i also wonder if others will actually ever get keyed into some of those thoughts. *shrugs* Something to wonder about.
But hey, at least the simple things keep me entertained, and i don't have to worry about the big stuff running around in there. Yeah right.
And on another note, i realize that that song isn't really what i felt @ that point in time. it was something i felt about 2 weeks ago, but thats kinda fading away. Makes me happy. All that remains are the echos. And those seem to be fading.
And now i sleep. I need it.
But hey, at least the simple things keep me entertained, and i don't have to worry about the big stuff running around in there. Yeah right.
And on another note, i realize that that song isn't really what i felt @ that point in time. it was something i felt about 2 weeks ago, but thats kinda fading away. Makes me happy. All that remains are the echos. And those seem to be fading.
And now i sleep. I need it.
Interesting weekend. Did some things i needed to do, mainly got the whole stacy thing over with. Wish i had done it earlier, mainly because i felt like i was playing the roll i hated times before. I dunno, i realize it's not that big of a deal, but in my mind i knew how things were, that there would never be anything, and let them continue on. Also found out she was kinda trying to put the blame on me for it, and while i may have led her on a little by not slamming the door, she was definately the driving force behind it, Who knows. Its over with, but apparently she's still worried, as she's bringing it up with bry and emmy. *shakes head* I dunno, just let it die stace.
Song of the moment is by Temple of the Dog.
No title, for she'll read this and i'll remember which one later on. But if she ever does figure it out, its not the whole song i agree with. Just a line or 2. And i'll remember those as well.
Talked to her for around 5 hours on saturday night. Who knows, maybe catching up on things we'de missed since she has given herself a 11:30/12 bedtime. Pretty funny, while the good conversations did flow like always, it wasn't always something deep, something stupid like blow jobs was brought up, as well as her trying for an hour and a half to figure out what i was hiding from her. She got me to give in at the end. She almost always does.
On another note, she figured out about this blog (cheater) so i guess i'm gonna have to make a new one. I dunno, i guess now that she knows this one, if i post here, i feel its gonna be me writing stuff just so she can see it, and while i may want her to read this stuff sometime into the future, i think i'de feel pathetic writing stuff that i knew only she would read. Who knows. Its kinda funny some of the things i want her to read i hide where she can't see them. I think i'll use one of her quotes an my heading.
She'll see it someday.
Song of the moment is by Temple of the Dog.
No title, for she'll read this and i'll remember which one later on. But if she ever does figure it out, its not the whole song i agree with. Just a line or 2. And i'll remember those as well.
Talked to her for around 5 hours on saturday night. Who knows, maybe catching up on things we'de missed since she has given herself a 11:30/12 bedtime. Pretty funny, while the good conversations did flow like always, it wasn't always something deep, something stupid like blow jobs was brought up, as well as her trying for an hour and a half to figure out what i was hiding from her. She got me to give in at the end. She almost always does.
On another note, she figured out about this blog (cheater) so i guess i'm gonna have to make a new one. I dunno, i guess now that she knows this one, if i post here, i feel its gonna be me writing stuff just so she can see it, and while i may want her to read this stuff sometime into the future, i think i'de feel pathetic writing stuff that i knew only she would read. Who knows. Its kinda funny some of the things i want her to read i hide where she can't see them. I think i'll use one of her quotes an my heading.
She'll see it someday.
Sunday, February 03, 2002
...more later
